Speechless

Me, Liz, Kaelin, and Mikaela

Me jumping for joy

Me, Alyssa, and Mikaela

So the title is called speechless because I can't think of what to call this post. In all honesty though, I am anything but speechless.

On this blog post there are a few topics in my life that I want to hit, here's the list:
My Problems
How to fix them
Being an LDS

Here we go
Queue sad music.

My Problems: So I have this problem where my imagination gets way to caught up, and at the time I thought there was nothing to do about that. Well, in short I was wrong. I also have a health problem. I have epilepsy. Petit Mal Epilepsy to be exact. Pronounced (Pet it). It is not the epilepsy that most people hear of or have seen. It is difficult to explain, but from my point of view, I am thinking or daydreaming and I continue to do so, then I "wake up" from my thoughts to people yelling my name. In that moment I had a seizure. When I have a seizure, to others I appear as a statue, not moving, not blinking, nothing. There, that is what it is like. In 9th grade though, I had grand Mal seizures. Apparently I had multiple seizures, according to my family who saw it all. The kind that is more heard of. In short it was dreadful, after each seizure tiredness took over me and I couldn't stay awake for too long. I went to the hospital. I came home. I went to the hospital again, and stayed overnight. I was not allowed to watch the t.v. , my parents didn't bring a book for me to read. In short I was bored, I was lonely, I was sad, I was tired. No friends came to visit me. My grandmother and Young Women's leader came to visit though, but as a 9th grader who was tired and a mess and in a hospital I didn't quite care for them at the time. I apologize, but it is true. For the longest time I thought that my friends didn't write me a card or wished me to get better. I came to find out yesterday that I had been wrong this whole time. Yeah, I know sad that I forgot.

Here's what my dear friends wrote:

 Hey Merci! I love you so much! You are such an incredible daughter of God! I'm keeping you in my prayers! Can't wait to see you Love Lizzie

 Mercedes, Hey Merci! I want you to know how much we love you. We are thinking of you and praying for you. I hope you feel better REALLY soon because I will be so lonely in science and gym without you! Love your guts! Love Alyssa

Dear Merci. Hey, how art thou, fairest maiden? Just wanted to let you know that we love you and are thinking of you! Love Tee Jay

 Merci, Hey girly! I love your guts to death! You're amazing! Love Kaelin

 From all of them in another letter:
 Dear Merci, hope you get well QUICKLY! We all love you SO much. You are such a wonderful, thoughtful friend. FEEL BETTER! Love Alyssa, Kaelin, Lizzie, and Taylor

I know, I have the best most adorable friends ever! They really know how to make a girl blush or tear up or smile sometimes.

Now queue happy music.

How to fix them(the problems):
So, a few quick things to help fix your problems. Pray. Pray long, and emotionally, it works! Pray every day, twice a day. Obey your family and the Lord. Do the things you haven't gotten around to doing yet. Be productive with your day. Man, I feel like a fountain spewing out helpful things! Or Oprah somehow, like You get blessings, You get blessings, everyone gets blessings! YAY!

Continue happy music

Being LDS:
I have to say being LDS is so wonderful with perks everywhere. Some may say that my religion is restricting, but to them I say FALSE! I mean lets be honest, I have had my fair share of trials, and deciding if I was gonna keep trying my best or quit. I kept trying and running fast to the finish line you could say, I still have a ways, but I will keep a happy face and dance the rest of the way with my favorite people beside me. If you have had trials, which lets face it, EVERYONE has, they will give you blessings you can't fathom at the moment, I want to say I know. Because when I was younger I thought no one understood me and my epilepsy, until in college I found a girl who had recently had some of the same experiences that I had, and I jumped for joy that I could finally be understood by a girl in similar circumstances! Yes, seriously I did. Also, my Lord, and Jesus Christ understand us perfectly, even more perfectly than we understand ourselves. It's the best religion ever! I love it so much, and the fact that I get to be with my family for eternity!

Sorry not sorry for the uber long post today.
Mercedes