Thoughts

Today I decided that I actually don't like being alone with my thoughts. Which is why I always want to be doing something or hanging out with someone. My thoughts make me worry, and scared, and a whole bunch of other feelings. I don't like to worry, or be scared. I like people and things that distract my mind, make me happy and excited. Who doesn't?

Today I've been alone with my thoughts too much. That needs to end, but I haven't found a way yet. Last night I talked to my older sister, which really helped. It was nice to talk to her and have her understand where I was coming from. Am I confusing you? If yes, that would make sense since you don't know the topic that I talked to her about. You shall remain blissfully unaware. Lets just say that I am scared of the future, even scared of the present.

If you want to get an idea of what I'm talking about watch the video series beneath this sentence. Not just because they are hilarious, but I find that I can resonate with Lizzie. I don't know you might not see it, but I do.

Right now I am listening to You Can Rely On Me by Jason Mraz. I almost think this could be Heavenly Fathers song, I said almost. It's helping me to relax and be sure of myself, or try to. Is it just me or is my blog sometimes sad? Blogs aren't supposed to be that way, they are supposed to be rainbows, unicorns, and happiness!! You're not supposed to blog about our mood swings, or sadness, right? Sorry about my tendency to do that, but I hope I'm not the only one who feels all this, it's hard to go through and not have anyone to understand. 

Well, today's post has officially been a drab, sorry

Mercedes