Time and Effort

I miss these lovelies.

In my life I'm at the point where I start to think that if I met someone and we talked about relationships and the like. I'd be saying that I'm not sure how it would work or at least I don't understand because I have made plans for this time in my life, It'd be too difficult. But, no worries this hasn't happened nor will it for I imagine a few years. I am just pointing out that I don't understand how some people do it or decide not to be selfish in a way, to choose love over whatever they are currently doing per se. Tell me if I used that phrase wrong or not because I have no clue.

I am also in that point of life where I question parents and how they can handle it being parenthood. I look at my sister-in-law, she's wonderful, incredible, and such a good mother. I just can't imagine myself as a mother right now because what do you do? I mean really at my nephews age he's learning new things, which is wonderful, but at the same time he's still a baby so he can't do much and you spend your day doing lots but at the same time not much. Maybe I'm wrong, and quite possibly I just don't understand because I'm not at the time in my life where everything suddenly becomes clear, especially the marriage and children topics.

More discoveries or things I didn't realize how much I love. Pizza, pizza is delicious, always has been, always will be! School isn't so horrible, it can actually be fun, it's incredible. I'm actually a pretty fast reader (this was discovered after I discovered that reading isn't so bad). I am not as shy as I thought, and I'm not so much of a nervous wreck when talking to boys. Who knew? South Africans are incredible cooks and people in general. My parents and grandparents friends are awesome (and this might be because I love elderly, loving folks).

What are your new found discoveries? Do tell.

Other blissful random things on my mind include. Astrology might be something I could get into, or at least my love of dark, starry nights helps this. I now want to start to sew amazing things because ever since my mother mentioned that I should take a class, I want to. Certain words or phrases can get me excited like "you should take a sewing class". I love finding new fancy words I haven't heard, because I could maybe up my word game. Missionaries have amazing stories, all of them do. I'm more open about my epilepsy/illness. I hate my eyebrows, they do whatever they want, but not what I want. I actually feel pretty a lot and you should too. I want to have elephant rides at my future wedding: Go big, or Go home. Wedding traditions are not my cup of tea, and tea is not my cup of tea. I love imagining driving off in the distance without looking back, only looking to the future adventures. I want to live somewhere that has desert thunderstorms and is like a constant road trip or camping trip.

Have a perfectly imperfect Monday evening.
Mercedes