Time To Switch Things Up

Oh what a life we live. Full of contradictions, emotions, and reality checks. It's constantly helping us figure out who "we" are, what we believe, and what we think about so many different things. It's so incredibly interesting to see how the world has changed within 10 years, to 100, to 1000. What was unacceptable to now acceptable.

So we have trials, that's nothing shocking, it happens and we muddle through them as best as we can. We think we have a handle on life, and that something harder will happen and we will be ready for it, but alas, I see our Heavenly Father laughing at that statement. Oh to think we will be ready for the next trial, what a hilarity! If you are at all curious of what exactly I'm talking about, I'll tell you.

Someone upstairs decided it was time to give me the year of my life. Don't get me wrong, it's been a good year, but apparently I needed a little drama. So within the last month, I've discovered that not only do I have epilepsy and bad vision as a young adult, but that I can now add anxiety and panic attacks to the list. Man am I learning more and more about myself. More so am I learning that really good days, can turn into something so drastically different in a millisecond. Panic attacks are frightening. You are suddenly telling yourself you can't do something, though you want to believe otherwise, you start freaking about anything and everything happening in your life. It gets hard to breathe and stop shaking.

I just want to say something I don't say too often, and I know I should. I love and appreciate my friends and family. They are the people who keep me going, the ones that help me know and remember that I am loved and cared for, and that life is worth living and going through. The ones who can make me laugh uncontrollably, the ones who can help me feel like my trials are so small and easy to get through, with them by my side. The ones who truly listen, and help me to feel like I am validated and understood. The ones who have been with me through everything! I love you and will never stop. Sure, we sometimes have our disagreements, but we don't let those get to the best of us.

Just remember, these trials we all seem to experience, will be but for a small moment.
Mercedes